#TheCollegeCEO: Busy Is Not A Badge Of Honor

My whole life I have always been busy. It drives me nuts to stay home, to do nothing all day and I am bad at giving myself time to relax. In high school, I joined every club possible and filled every second in my calendar. I promised myself that as soon as I went to college I would limit myself to only three clubs, which some how I ended up signing up for way more then that. I am always driving to work straight from class and then back to campus for some meeting or event. Always just busy.

Which comes with a time limit, then one day it all hits me. I realize that I spread myself too thin, it all catches up with me and I burn out. I can't tell you how many times I do this to myself because I have this internal need to be busy.

have always felt that if I am busy, that must mean that I am important. Important people are always busy right?

Do you ever feel like the universe is sending you the same sign over and over again.

I think today I finally got the sign. I don't need to fill every moment of my day. Being busy has nothing to do with how productive I am or how important I am or what is next for me after college.

I was scoring through my Instagram feed and saw a post from #girlboss and it read "Your worth is not measured by your productivity. Being busy shouldn't be a status symbol." And it hit me like a train, stopped me right in my tracks.

My whole life school, society, future employers and universities I wanted to attend, all have told me that if you want to be good enough, you have to pack your life with things to add to resume. If your not busy, your not working hard enough.

From this mentally and pressure I put on myself, I have alway attached my identity to how hard I work and what I have accomplished. I signed up for three degrees, work a pretty much full time job and am trying to start a company, on top of all the extra curricular activities . I make my life busy and sometimes I forget that to detach that from who I am.

I am working on finding that balance, forcing myself to schedule time off and to enjoy the things I love outside of work. Working to learn that my worth or importance is not attached to how many activities I can fit into one day.

Cheers,

Courteney